A Disappointing PR

  I ran the Wineglass Marathon yesterday, and as the post title suggests, I did not meet my Boston Qualifier goal… by 15 seconds. 

Granted, based on this year’s Boston cutoff of 2:38 better than qualifying time, I missed it by at least over 2 minutes. My “A” goal for this race was 3:50, “B” goal was BQ, and “C” goal was to break 4 hours. All my training and my half PR from earlier this year pointed towards being able to come close to my A goal. 

I ended up with a 3:55:15, which is a 8 minute 49 second improvement over last year’s Baystate Marathon. I should be pretty happy, but instead I am super disappointed. 

I was right on track and feeling good until around mile 21. Then the proverbial wheels came off. Mile 24 was pretty terrible. I rallied somewhat for the last 2.2 miles, but when in the last mile the 3:55 pacer passed me, I felt like I’d failed. I simply could not keep up with the pacer. My legs did not have any energy. I’m kicking myself over it, even knowing I would’ve kept up if I could’ve.

I wish I could say what went wrong, but I really don’t know. 

I’m trying to see the positives, but my head is in a bummed out place. I’m going to allow today to feel bad, then move on. I may try to put together a race recap when I’m feeling less blue. Wineglass puts on a terrific race, and it deserves a better frame of mind for a write up. 


29 thoughts on “A Disappointing PR

  1. Bummer! I’m sorry you didn’t as well as you’d hoped. I’m all kinds of impressed you finished in under 4 hours, and it sounds like your tummy pretty much behaved. Even so, I do understand the need to mourn the missed goal.

  2. Karen @ runningfifty says:

    Congratulations on your PR but I can imagine how disappointing it must be to have come so close to your BQ goal. It sounds like you gave it your all.

  3. I’m sorry to hear this news. Whatever the problem, it sounds like you gave it all you had on the day, and I hope at some point that will matter to you and you’ll be rightly proud of yourself for it, but at the moment it probably just hurts too much. Definitely allow yourself a bit of time to process, analyze, get your “balance” back before getting back after it, which I’ve no doubt you will. Make sure to take care of yourself physically after this effort & remember the physical affects biochemical/mood as well. Hugs. Sending good thoughts.

    • I hope that some time and perspective will give me the ability to be proud because, objectively, I should be. It certainly is what I’d truthfully say to another runner if the situation were reversed. Thanks for your comment. It helps.

  4. Can I say I’m soooooo sorry and congratulations at once?! You ran a huge PR, especially considering the speed at which you’re running! But I totally get your disappointment. Been there myself, nailing the PR but missing the bigger goal by mere seconds. I feel for you. Good idea to let yourself mourn, then regroup. No matter what, you gave it everything you had!

    • Lol, that’s sort of how I feel about it — the dichotomy of “yay! sub-4 hours!” and. “boo. Didn’t meet my main goal.”

      I know you’re going to reach your sub-2 goal soon and that you totally get this frustration. Thank you for your comments.

  5. So sorry to hear the disappointment! I was tracking weather and was hoping everything lined up and saw you time and was thrilled! Sad that you missed the BQ by such a small amount! But please be proud of what you DID do … although the disappointment is also inevitable!

    • You were right about it being a great course, and the crowd support was really wonderful. Definitely a race I would recommend to others and a contender for a repeat by me (except maybe for the half next time). I have mixed feelings, but I know I should be proud about what I did achieve.

  6. Huge congrats, yet I am sorry…while I’ll more than likely never BQ, I know how it feels to miss a goal time as my last half marathon was chip timed at 2:00:11. Missing my sub 2 PR by 11 seconds. Argh!!! Big hugs!

  7. Darlene says:

    Sad for you because I know how much you wanted it. But I am super impressed with your time and it’s only a matter of time that you will BQ. You’re maybe just too young LOL.

  8. I’ve been trying to figure out what I can say to you to make you feel better, but I totally understand where you’re coming from, and I don’t know if there’s anything that would truly make me feel better in those circumstances. But I do understand, and it’s ok to feel bad. That’s what I wish someone would have told me. Go ahead, be mad, mourn the loss of your BQ. You worked so hard and it’s ok to be disappointed. But just don’t unpack and live there. 🙂 You’re a fighter, so get up and go for it again once you’re done being disappointed and can move on. Like next week? ❤ Really, I feel bad, but you did good, girl. You did good, be proud of your huge accomplishment. You ran a marathon, and you ran a marathon fast!

  9. Real shame that you missed your goal but well done. You forget normal people like me who get out of breath running down the platform for a train consider people who complete 26.1 miles as bloody superhuman!

  10. Hugs! I’m so glad that I ran into you at Wineglass. I liked “running with you” (having us pass each other several times). Whenever you were ahead, I’d spot your bright InknBurn tank and use it to keep me from falling too far behind.

    It’s tough when you don’t have the race you would have liked. You set a great PR and it’s progress toward your BQ. You’re not there yet, but you’re a heck of a lot closer to it than a year ago.

  11. I am so sorry to hear that your race did not go as planned, but congrats on the HUGE improvement from your last race! 8+ minutes is ridiculously awesome. I know it wasn’t the goal you were shooting for, but you made progress!!! In my eyes, you crushed it!!

  12. Wanted to comment sooner but I have been so lazy lately! I followed your progress at wineglass (along with a bunch of other girls from my run club!) I know you had that 15 seconds in ya! Totally on board with the idea of giving it a do over for a BQ. You are awesome. I can’t even wrap my brain around what you did, let alone what you’re taking on. Way to go, Judith. I will be looking forward to your next round of training.

      • Yeah, blog is the first thing to go for me when stuff starts piling up. But I always check in on my faves 🙂
        Like I said, I’m glad you’re shooting for another BQ because you totally have it in you. SO FREAKING CLOSE.

  13. Oh no! I’m sorry I’m just now catching up on your blog posts (injuries kept me kinda jaded). I do understand how you feel – when you are so close to such a momentous goal, it can be hard to see the bigger picture, even when you’ve done something amazing. But if there’s anything I’ve learned about you, it’s that you’re a serious fighter. I’m assuming you’ve already allowed yourself to wallow a bit – and it’s completely okay. But based on your upcoming marathon, you’ve also moved beyond that. Don’t dwell on this one anymore than is necessary to learn from it. You will come back for your next one and you will kick some serious ass! You totally got this 😉

    • Oh, I certainly wallowed! But just for one day (ok, maybe a couple residual sniffles for a few days after), and then I started thinking about what to do next. But I am glad I felt sorry for myself for that day — it was cathartic.

      Now I’m excited and ready to tackle another race. I am attacking my nutrition — something I can improve on and is actionable, which feels better than stewing in disappointment.

      Thank you for your kind comments. They mean a lot.

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