Warning: rambling post ahead.
I’m finding it very difficult to concentrate on anything lately. It’s not so much taper madness but race anxiety. My emotions are all over the place. Mostly I’m feeling a lack of confidence that is totally useless and a waste of energy.
I’m excited to have an approximately 10 mile cruise interval workout today because I need to get rid of some of these jitters.
Reading Boston Marathon stories has been a mixed bag for me. Every person who has better half marathon times than me who ran the race in a slower time than I need for a BQ has me panicked. Forget that I haven’t run a half since November and I am a far better runner now. No, I’m feeling insecure. It’s irritating.
My biggest challenge is going to be pacing myself. Remember that group running coach that lied about his race time a few months ago? He ran Boston and did kind of shitty. As in, went out too fast at 8:30s and consistently decreased his speed every 5k until his final pace was over a 12 minute mile. I don’t know what happened to him, but since the decline started almost immediately, I wouldn’t think it was an injury or heat issues. I’m not shocked given what I’d learned about him, but it’s sort of aggravating that he was given power to coach people. I met up with one of the other group runners last week, and his estimates for their marathon times seems wayyyyy overly optimistic.
I stopped running with the group about a month ago since 1) I wasn’t thrilled with the coach, and 2) my McMillan training plan was pretty specific and I didn’t want to mess with it by trying to hybridize training plans.
I feel a little evil for feeling vindicated that the coach wasn’t very good. And I’m worried I’m getting bad race karma all over me because of it.
I’m nearly packed for Washington DC this weekend. It looks like the weather will be similar for both this half marathon and my full marathon next weekend. My strategy for the Nike half is to go super easy the first 8 miles, then speed up to marathon goal pace for the final miles. I intend to have fun. It’ll be weird running this race and probably not PRing, but it’s not the point. It’s another glorified training run.
I’m very excited to go to DC. It’s been a few years since my last trip there. Even the jaded boy is excited to go because we’re eating dinner at Tosca Friday night. He’s been dreaming about their lamb shank for 4 years.
On Monday, I meet with my personal trainer and my chiropractor. I love love love my new personal trainer. He just seems to care. He’s exactly what this old body needed for crosstraining. I’m looking forward to when he adds more lifting to my program after the marathon. But right now, the changes in my mobility are noticeable and make my running a little looser.
I got a new pair of Newtons (Distance III) in the mail today. I wish they’d come a couple weeks sooner so I could use them in my races, but it’s partly my own fault. I’d accidentally bought the stability version of the shoe because the color was less garish. I realized my mistake when I took them for a test run and my feet and legs said, “No me gusta.”
Luckily, I’d bought them from Roadrunner Sports who let me exchange them for the right shoes. The color is awful, but I don’t spend a lot of time looking at my feet when I run.
Anyone else going to be in DC this weekend? Anyone played the app game 2048? I’m addicted to it and it’s the only thing I’ve managed to focus on the past few days. Anyone have suggestions on how else I can calm the fuck down? Aside from a glass of wine, since alcohol is not an option 😉